Hmm so i have met this really awsome guy, and he and I get along really well. ITs like this odd really amazing connection. I dont know, but its just nice, and I like him i think. but, I also met this other guy who  I will be going to college with, and he and i get along really well to, but the connection is not quite there. Its odd, because I liek both, but, ga

oh well, that is ok

on anopther note, i have a super hectic sschool scheduale, its crazzy and my teacher is giveing us a shit load to do. I dontg like it that much. all the other seniors are now resting and kinda laying back, but not us, we are gung-ho and full blast ass breaking work.

Also, my birthday is on monday, and I am so going to go clubbing as soon as possible!!!!!!

I miss my swan, really I miss her a whole shit load, sad faces are the best way to describe it.

Talk about being a while, its been super long, like a month or so, its crazzy.

So um, lots has happened, hooked up with a few people, extremely frustrated with life and just about everyting in it. My dr.s, all three of them, are all extremely frustrating and i want take all the papers from them and rip it up, stomp on  them and scream!!!!

School, well i fialed my AP, big surprise there, but its ok, work is all right and taht is all i have to say.

I just had 2 VERY dark pieces of choc cake for this one party, and i'm diring and it hurts ot think about.

time to fly, aidos

hey there, life is a little odd right now. research,  habing absolutley wonderful bird watching clasess...i saw over 36ndiffereng species last satryday!!!!!!! most of which I had never seen befor!!!1 it was SUCH a great time with my mom.

I have work,..and I  need to get my prom dress...but I really dont want to. In fact I dont even know if i want to go to prom...I mean...ga I dont know anymore. Everything has changed...i have changed so its not really easy to say what I want.

I miss my friends, my old old life, not this years life, but last years, or when i was tiny and life was new and spectacular.

I want to escape to college, so that i can start over, so taht i can be independant and try things on my own with no one to hold me back but me.

ok time to get back to work at school, good bye.

I'm cold...so cold, always cold. I want to curl up  in a ball, and snuggle and sleep and just be warm and hugged. I want to forget school, forget work, forget the past and future and only live in the now.

I need a hug

Cut, Slash, Tare, Burn

Adrenilin pumping, bile churn

Grab tight, choke the life

Pierce, Stab, Sherd with a knife

Kick, throw and slam

Take the sharp object and ram

Fight of flight

Run into the night

Don't turn round

Later, your body is found.